This is what I concluded:
It is okay to want to work on yourself. We all should be striving to improve ourselves- you know... learning... growing and all that shit. It is fine to have high expectations of yourself- as long as they are achievable. Let me help: Goals like~ eating healthier than that day you consumed six cookies for every meal, perhaps. Goals like~ exercising enough so that oxygen flows to your brain and eliminates the desire to sell your offspring/husband/pets. Goals like~ trying to incorporate a new vocabulary word into your speech or writing. Today mine is lachrymose. I will now use it in a sentence. I am embarrassed to say that I get a little lachrymose every time I watch a dance show on television, especially when I am having my period.
Guess what? Almost all of us can pick out every teensy weensy flaw on our bodies. I have even heard my husband do it, and the man has the most annoying habit of turning negatives into positives. I remember listening to an interview between George Clooney and Julia Roberts. He asked her if she ever felt insecure about her body image. She laughed at him and said, "Pshaw! Yeah! I'm a girl!". Julia Roberts people! This is someone that almost all of us has admired in some way. Hello? She was/is/always will be gorgeous.
I have been picking apart my body since I entered puberty. My boobs are too small, my thighs are too German, my nose is too big, my neck ate my chins.... blah blah blah. I hated my knees so much that I even broke one of them in High School. Guess what? I am tired of inflicting negative energy onto myself. My body is comfortably lived in, has incubated two glorious Things, has enough scars, stretch marks, bags and sags to make other women like me and, in general, it has served me just fine. I know its flaws and I know its strengths. Here is one: My arms a decent (when I do yoga....). See? How hard was that? Rock Hard- check 'em out!!! Okay, not rock hard....
|Please don't compare me to my sister, or anyone else|
who works out on a regular basis...
Even a slurring, medicated (but still cute) Paula Abdul was coherent enough to say, "You can admire people all you want, and that is lovely, but when you can INSPIRE people, that is the ultimate gift." I hope that I have inspired at least one person today to go easier on yourself..... then I can cross that shit off my Resolutions for 2011 list.
P.S. Thing 1 pooped in the potty today- his idea even. I gave him 2 stickers! See what a loving and generous being that I am? This love vibe is really working!